honesty is what makes the world go round, not love, or money or gravity. fuck gravity, it hurts when you feel sick, that shit just wants to rise, we all feel better after a good vom. new faceboook new life? technology.. that shit determines how you live your life, it changes people, brings the worst out, we hide behind our social networks, these alias’ can deter us from the real world, leading us astray, and thats where the honesty leaves. i fucked up taking people for granted and believing that what i was doing was okay, not right, i knew it was wrong, but okay, two syllables that can fuck with a life, if everything was okay in this world it would be fucked up, okay - isn’t right or wrong, its the mid way choice that people decide is satisfactory to live their life by. i will never be forgiven for what i’ve done, but will be rewarded with another chance when i can prove i have turned that shit behind me. that person who you feel is the one is not the person that gives you goosebumps when you see them, that wears off, its not the person that is impressed when you buy them nice expensive things thats greed, its the person that sticks by you, and no matter how much they want to HATE you, they feel sticking by you is the right decision, and that good/right will provail, these people are perfectly match one-to-one. there is always someone out there who will stick by you no matter what, you just goot to find them, i found mine, and as the story goes, boy-meets-girls, boy screws up, boy screws up more, girl forgives boy, boy screws up again, girl hates boy, boy proves himself, happily ever after? nothing ever ends happily that quickly, i have to work on my happily ever after, something time and money will never fix. ahhh. the next 72hours are critical. Emily. I Love You. I’m Sorry.

i have decided decided against presents this year, apart from on my self, for several reason, firstly my family are up to fuck all, and dont feel they deserve much, secondly i am way to broke, and find alcohol and cigarettes far more worth my time. homebrew ftw,  got some decent new stuff coming out, seems they are pretty against john key, and now national won the election there will (i guessing) be a whole new bunch of politically driven music, most of it being anti national. i need long as i stop over thinking, nicotine helps, but you hate me smoking. the only time i eveer seem to blog is when my brain fills up, i guess its been a while, had a break up, a make up, a get up, new friends up, gone up some hills, havent been up in the air yet though, i need to travel soon this retcharrrrrrd city its killing me. got a job interview today, should make for some regular dough, in a chocolate shop, i hate chocolate but least i won’t be persueded to eat the stock. and now 2012 is drawing nearer things are looking up people know what i mean,  i want to be together and am so proud of how much you have grown up? but got to take it slow, not expect to much, ew baby gagging behind me, and see where shit takes us. 

“…And when he came to the place where the wild things are they roared their terrible roars…and gnashed their terrible teeth…and rolled their terrible eyes…and showed their terrible claws…till Max said “BE STILL!” and tamed them with the magic trick of staring into all their yellow eyes without blinking once…and they were frightened and called him the most wild thing of all…and made him the king of all wild things.”

tomorrow. big ups to the M*A*S*S*I*V*E crew, we all know its going to be a big. one.

since i last posted anything, stuck in a maths lecture lets have some fun.